Lia Mi really hadn’t expected that the problem that had troubled her for so long could be unraveled by someone else in just a few words.
And the person who did it wasn’t just anyone, but that most unreliable Lant!
Ah, now it should be Little Lan.
Right now, Lia Mi was overwhelmed by mixed feelings, not knowing what to say.
She casually brushed Little Lan off with a few perfunctory words and then let the other party leave.
Little Lan was a little baffled when she left.
Things had been going well just now, so why was she suddenly being sent away?
And what about the advice Lia Mi promised to give her?
Why hadn’t she given a single useful suggestion in the end!
Although Little Lan had quite a few complaints about Lia Mi’s behavior, unfortunately, none of them could be transmitted into Lia Mi’s mind.
Of course, even if they could, given Lia Mi’s current state, she probably wouldn’t be able to resolve them.
After all, Lia Mi’s mind was now like a storm passing through—intense and turbulent.
It was only after Little Lan had been gone for quite a while that Lia Mi finally let out a slow sigh.
The fierce thoughts raging in her mind gradually quieted down, no longer as frenzied as when she first heard Little Lan’s words.
Something about what Little Lan said had touched Lia Mi in a strange way, as if a dam somewhere in her heart was starting to give way.
No, it wasn’t just giving way—it was on the verge of bursting.
She already felt that her own thinking was just fine.
Sure enough, living as she was now was truly what she wanted in her heart.
But the problem was, that was just her own thought.
How would others see her?
Actually, Lia Mi wasn’t the sort of person who cared much about what others thought, but among those “others” was Colin.
That’s what made her so tangled up.
Would Colin agree with me?
Lia Mi imagined, but judging from his previous actions, it seemed unlikely that Colin would approve of her decision.
After all, Colin had tried so hard to get her to change back before.
If she suddenly said now that she didn’t want to go back, wouldn’t Colin be troubled by that?
Maybe… he really wouldn’t?
Suddenly, Lia Mi remembered what Little Lan had just said: “I believe in him. If it’s him, he won’t deny my choice. If I can’t even muster up this bit of courage, then I wouldn’t be able to stay by his side at all.”
The courage to trust him… That’s true.
I should trust Colin a bit more, instead of just assuming he’ll deny me.
With his personality, he’d probably just be stunned for a moment and then helplessly accept it, wouldn’t he?
At this thought, a faint light glimmered in Lia Mi’s eyes.
She began to think that maybe doing things this way wasn’t so bad after all, and she should follow her true feelings.
But soon, the light in Lia Mi’s eyes was overtaken by a deep worry, and her brows furrowed once more.
Lia Mi recalled what Elinor had said to her last night—if she chose not to go back, would it affect Elinor?
The question sounded a bit ridiculous.
Whether she changed back or not was her own business; what did it have to do with Elinor and Colin’s relationship?
But Lia Mi didn’t want to deceive herself any longer.
She couldn’t deny that after more than a month of getting along, she did have some rather troublesome feelings for Colin.
If she chose not to change back and continued living in her current body, it was hard to say whether these troublesome feelings would keep influencing her.
If they ended up affecting Colin and Elinor, that would be even worse.
Actually, Lia Mi did have some confidence in her own self-control.
But in this matter, it was hard for her to trust herself.
She was afraid that if she lost control, it would lead to a huge mistake.
She didn’t want to see anything bad happen in her relationship with Elinor and Colin.
That was why she hesitated again over the decision she thought she’d already made—should she go back or not?
After thinking in place for a while, Lia Mi still couldn’t come up with a solution she truly wanted.
In order not to attract attention, she had no choice but to return to her room first and continue thinking there.
A few days later, Lia Mi was lying on the living room sofa, feeling listless and bored.
During these past few days, she had been pondering whether she should change back.
Unfortunately, she still hadn’t found a good answer.
Of course, what she wanted was just to continue living like this without changing back, but that was only her own thought—the reality might not allow it.
Elinor definitely wouldn’t approve of this idea.
She couldn’t guess Colin’s attitude either.
As for Sifney, she seemed to be coming around, and as for Lavinia…
Lia Mi snapped out of her daze and glanced over at Lavinia on another sofa.
The other girl was carefully reading a “Handbook of Various Plant Cultivation” she had bought at some point.
That absorbed look made Lia Mi hesitate to disturb her.
But after thinking it over, Lia Mi decided to ask Lavinia anyway.
If she just kept thinking by herself, she’d never find an answer.
Might as well go straight to the person involved—maybe she’d get a quicker answer.
Besides, now was a great time to ask.
Colin and Elinor weren’t here, and Lola and the others were off cleaning other parts of the mansion.
After several days of touring the city, Lavinia had no plans to go out for the time being, so now was the best moment to ask!
If she missed this chance, who knew when such a good opportunity would come again!
Of course, she couldn’t ask directly—the risk was too high.
So Lia Mi decided to probe Lavinia’s attitude by sounding her out.
“Lavinia, do you think it’s better to live as a woman, or as a man?”
Lavinia had been engrossed in some planting method in her book, but was suddenly pulled out by Lia Mi’s strange question.
Such a weird question immediately yanked Lavinia’s attention away from the book.
“What’s with that odd question? Why would you think of something like that? Men and women have different advantages and disadvantages. Which is better? How should I know? Frankly, I don’t think it’s even worth discussing.”
Faced with Lia Mi’s probing, Lavinia raised an eyebrow and gave a classic standard answer.
But that wasn’t what Lia Mi wanted—she wanted Lavinia’s own opinion.
“Alright, just take it as killing time, okay? If it were you, would you rather be a woman or a man?”
Lia Mi changed tack, trying to draw out Lavinia’s personal view.
Though Lavinia frowned slightly at the question, she still thought about it seriously.
“Hmm… If I really had to pick, then I guess being a woman is better? At least that’s how I feel.”
Hearing this, Lia Mi was instantly excited.
Did this mean Lavinia could accept my change?!
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