Chapter 152: Considerate, Meow?

“Still… what’s the point of saying it out loud?” Xiaoxi lowered her eyes.

“I’m the one in the team most suited to fight the Blood Moon Witch. There’s nothing you all can really do to help—even if I say it, it’ll just add to everyone’s worries for nothing.”

From the mid-period of The Chaos, Magical Girls started to operate more and more in teams, precisely because people realized that each Magical Girl’s abilities were different and complemented each other.

Only by acting as a team could everyone’s strengths be maximized.

Each Magical Girl in a team had different roles.

Xiaoxi had always been the main C in the team—not because she was the strongest, but because her abilities were the most versatile.

She was the only one who could switch between different forms.

If there was a contest in the Training Room comparing pure attack power, Eternal Star’s stats definitely couldn’t match Silverflame Dragon Princess.

But real battles weren’t like exams. With how nimble Dragon Princess was, she’d still suffer under the Blood Moon Witch’s all-pervasive tentacles.

In the end, numbers wouldn’t be enough. Eternal Star, on the other hand, wouldn’t have such a problem.

So, not only within the team, but even one-on-one, Eternal Star was still the Magical Girl most suited to deal with the Blood Moon Witch.

Muxingge was at a loss for words. She had never considered things in such depth.

They’d only seen Xiaoxi fighting valiantly before the Blood Moon Witch, never noticing what Xiaoxi quietly endured behind the scenes… As teammates, they truly hadn’t done enough.

“I… I’m sorry, A-Xing,” Muxingge bit her lower lip. “I’m always saying how the Magical Girl Team is an Order of Destiny Community, but in the end, I didn’t notice a thing…”

Something so simple—if anyone just thought a little more carefully, they’d see it.

When everyone thought Eternal Star was ‘reliable’, who did she have to rely on?

“This isn’t your fault, Xingge,” Xiaoxi took Muxingge’s hand. “It was my own decision to hide this from you. You don’t need to blame yourself for my choice.”

“A-Xing, when you put it that way, your problem is kind of like Ling’er’s, isn’t it, so—”

“It’s completely different,” Xiaoxi gave a wry smile. “Do you think Silverflame Dragon Princess could ever feel fear? Her way doesn’t work for me.”

Muxingge thought for a moment, then nodded in agreement.

Silver Bell’s situation really was different from Xiaoxi’s.

As long as Silver Bell entered Silverflame Dragon Princess’s state, she couldn’t be afraid of any enemy.

“I can’t do what Linger does. Back then, every night I’d have nightmares about the Blood Moon Witch. I’d wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night, and that sense of death’s threat terrified me both in reality and in dreams.”

Xiaoxi lowered her head, clenching her fists to steady her slightly trembling hands.

This fear came from countless times facing the Blood Moon Witch directly—it had become instinct.

Xiaoxi could force herself to overcome the fear and fight the Blood Moon Witch, but she couldn’t lie to her own heart.

The terror brought by the Blood Moon Witch was like a shadow that clung to her, leaving a deep scar inside.

Muxingge understood that Xiaoxi’s reaction was actually trauma caused by the Blood Moon Witch.

For a teenage girl carrying the heavy burden of a Magical Girl, the long-term psychological pressure of facing such a terrifying enemy was truly immense.

“Actually, about The Association, I never told you all the truth. I didn’t quit The Association just because I disagreed with their values—more than anything, I… I’m just tired. Xingge, The Chaos is already over. I just want to put down the identity of Eternal Star and live the stable life of an Ordinary Person.”

“So I didn’t mean to vanish on everyone. I just wanted to get away from the past. Maybe, if I started a new life as an Ordinary Person, I could slowly forget those things. Besides, you guys are all celebrities—if I wanted to find you, it would be easy.”

Xiaoxi smiled. “I thought everything was slowly fading with the years. But fate just has to toy with people… Ha, I really like Xinglan, but I just can’t control it… I’m afraid of her…”

Xiaoxi used to wonder: what if one day the Blood Moon Witch was released?

She actually didn’t hate the Blood Moon Witch, and was even willing to be her friend.

But Ye Xinglan… Xinglan was just too close, too important a part of her life.

Sharing a pillow every day, that was just too intimate.

The fear of the Blood Moon Witch and her feelings for Ye Xinglan were completely at odds and torn apart inside Xiaoxi.

She tried to convince herself, but couldn’t fool her instincts.

It was like bringing the tip of a pencil closer and closer to your own eye—you know clearly that you won’t jab it in, but you still can’t help blinking, your eyelid trembling… That’s instinct.

No amount of reason can convince you out of that kind of fear.

Now Muxingge completely understood why Xiaoxi had been acting so strangely after finding out Ye Xinglan was the Blood Moon Witch.

She didn’t know how to comfort her, so she could only awkwardly pat Xiaoxi on the back.

“Sigh, I get it now. Basically, you’re just afraid of your wife.”

“No, no, that’s not what it is at all!”

Muxingge nodded, thinking to herself that was true—such a serious issue couldn’t just be laughed off.

“Xinglan and I are only dating right now… we haven’t gone that far yet.” Xiaoxi blushed a little.

Muxingge: “……”

So that’s what you’re hung up on?

“Have you ever considered telling Ye Xinglan about this? With her help, maybe you could overcome it faster?”

Xiaoxi shook her head, suddenly thinking of that night after returning from the Black Market, when Ye Xinglan was alone on the bed searching for Blood Moon Witch news.

Her hands and feet had been icy cold.

“Xinglan is just pretending not to care in front of me, right? I bet she really minds it, and is afraid I’ll resent her… If I told her everything, how would she feel? I can’t add to her burden right now.”

“In the end, this is just my own mental issue, isn’t it? Only I can fix it.”

Muxingge hesitated, frowning in thought for a moment, then let out a snort.

“I get it now, A-Xing. I finally understand why you’re so awkward—it’s because you’re too considerate.”

“Xingge, why does your compliment sound like you’re scolding me…”

“Compliment you? To me, being considerate is always a backhanded thing. Being considerate… it means you always give way to others. You’re just a pushover, A-Xing.”

“Because you’re afraid of worrying your teammates, you shoulder all the pressure yourself and never say a word. To avoid putting any burden on your little girlfriend, you keep your psychological problems bottled up inside and try to digest them alone. You really are…”

“What about you, A-Xing? You think about everyone else, but who the heck is thinking about you?”