Chapter 152: Lavinia’s Attempt

As soon as she thought of this possibility, Liyami couldn’t help but press further.

“Really?! Why do you think that?!”

Facing Liyami’s questioning, Lavinia looked at her with a bit of surprise.

“Why are you so worked up?”

“Uh…” Liyami also realized she had slipped up, exposing herself at such a time. Thankfully, she reacted quickly, “N-no, it’s nothing, haha, I was just surprised by your answer, that’s all. You see, normal people usually answer with the gender they yearn for, right? That’s why I got so excited.”

Lavina didn’t suspect anything from Liyami’s clumsy reply, instead focusing on what Liyami had just said.

“Is that really how normal people think? That they’d actually dislike their own gender?”

Lavina muttered to herself for a moment, until Liyami asked her the question again.

“Why do I think that way? Isn’t it obvious? It’s because I’m a woman myself, of course. How would I know whether being a man is any good if I’m not one? Anyway, I’m perfectly satisfied with my current gender and have no desire to be a man.”

Lavina’s answer left Liyami a bit disappointed. The other party hadn’t really thought deeply about the question, just giving a casual, offhand response.

Seeing this, Liyami knew that simply asking questions like this wouldn’t let her learn Lavina’s true thoughts. She would have to take a more direct approach.

Liyami thought for a while, and finally decided to take a high-risk move—ask directly.

She braced herself, then asked a very dangerous question: “Then, do you think… how I am now is good?”

As the saying goes, nothing ventured, nothing gained! If she didn’t take such a risky approach, there was no way she could get a big payoff. Anyway, with Lavina’s usual mindset, she’d probably just take this question as a joke, right?

Liyami’s question caught Lavina off guard, and it was a good while before Lavina snapped out of it.

Lavina looked at Liyami suspiciously for a moment before slowly replying, “How you are now, is it good? Which aspect are you talking about?”

“I mean, do you think the old, male me was better, or do you like the current, female me more?”

Although Liyami’s words seemed calm, deep down she was actually very anxious.

She was really afraid Lavina’s next words would be, “Why would you ask such a gross question? You don’t really want to be a woman, do you?” Luckily, Lavina didn’t answer like that.

“Mm… If I really have to say, I still prefer how you are now.”

Liyami’s eyes lit up at these words, and she couldn’t help but raise her voice, “Really?!”

“Of course.”

Liyami’s excitement didn’t surprise Lavina; she just showed a “just as I thought” expression. And Liyami, too excited to notice Lavina’s reaction, missed this altogether.

“Compared to the cute you now, I really couldn’t like your old gloomy self. Back then, you gave me the impression that you could just drop dead at any time and it wouldn’t surprise anyone. Always by yourself, not talking much, sometimes even staring at others’ shadows—it’s hard not to wonder if you had some mental issues.”

Lavina’s answer left Liyami dumbfounded. She hadn’t expected that in Lavina’s eyes, she used to look like that. It was a bit hard to accept.

Fortunately, Liyami’s main concern right now wasn’t that, so she didn’t bother arguing with Lavina.

But this strange situation still made Lavina glance at her several more times.

So that’s it… Lavina thinks I’m better this way too. That’s great!

Although Lavina’s answer was a little different from what Liyami expected, at least the other party really did prefer how Liyami was now, which gave her a sense of affirmation.

Maybe Lavina would even support my choice!

Although she thought this to herself, Liyami didn’t actually say her choice out loud. She knew that even if Lavina might not mind, she still didn’t know how Colin and Eireno would react.

She couldn’t say anything prematurely. What if Lavina couldn’t keep her mouth shut and let it slip to them?

So, even though Liyami was excited by Lavina’s attitude, she still didn’t fully trust the other party and decided to play it safe.

And as she watched the barely-contained excitement on Liyami’s face, Lavina narrowed her eyes slightly, as if pondering something.

Getting the answer she wanted, Liyami shook off her usual lethargy and found new energy. Now she was more confident in her own ideas and wanted to find a chance to test Colin’s attitude too.

But she absolutely couldn’t let Eireno see her getting close to Colin. Otherwise, Eireno would definitely give her that hostile look again.

If this even affected Eireno and Colin’s relationship, Liyami definitely wouldn’t be happy about it.

As for Eireno’s attitude… Liyami honestly didn’t know what to do. After all, Eireno these days—putting it bluntly—was a little neurotic.

Liyami didn’t dare bring this up with her now. Better to wait until things between Eireno and Colin settled down before asking.

With her next steps decided, Liyami didn’t plan on sitting idly on the sofa any longer, but was about to get back to her old trade—secretly observing Colin and Eireno.

There was always the risk of being discovered, but Liyami felt it was still necessary to watch them. It was better than running off to ask Colin without knowing anything. At least this way, she could have a rough guess in her heart.

With that thought, Liyami prepared to move, using action to replace unnecessary overthinking. She wanted to keep herself busy, not wallow in gloomy thoughts.

All the while, Lavina watched Liyami silently from the side, making not a sound.

Lavina’s brows furrowed slightly, her expression a little hesitant, as if debating whether or not to speak.

But considering Liyami hadn’t fully opened up to her either, Lavina figured there was no need to tell her everything.

Maybe that’s for the best—everyone has their own privacy, and it’s best not to pry too much. Keeping things as they are might be the best choice.

As long as things stayed the same, maybe that incident wouldn’t happen again.

Lavina’s expression suddenly turned a little forlorn and pained, as if she was remembering something important but not exactly pleasant.

It wasn’t until Liyami was about to leave that Lavina finally made up her mind. She still wanted to make the same choice as before, even if this time might end the same way. She wanted to try again. Maybe—maybe this time, it would be different from last time? Just maybe…

So, just as Liyami was about to walk away, Lavina suddenly spoke. And what she said made Liyami stop in her tracks, turning around in shock to face her.

“You really like yourself as a woman this much? Like it enough to want to live as this forever? Not a single regret?”